Think I'm the only muhf**a in a room of bodies
Thanking Jesus that my crew around me
I ain't got a Judas by me
I'm trying to keep a watchful eye out for Illuminati
They might gut me out and try and put a tomb inside me
But I'm already dead inside
Pen in my hand and the pen in sight
From a couple misdemeanors that I did last night
And my head ain't right, I got d**h in mind
I woke up with a scream and cold sweat
Night vision's grotesque
Now I'm like f** it, that's progress
Before I couldn't sleep for weeks
I could f**in' swear that I could see the demons creep
And they're seeking me
I could f**in' feel the reaper breathe
f**in' see the demons teeth
n***a, this is way too real for me
So I fear no man
f** you, y'all n***as never shook me
I never been a p**y
I ain't a k**er, but don't push me
Hail Mary full of grace, how could you overlook me?
Few people understood me
Loner with a backpack, hoodie, a sack of that goodie
Brain in a fury, trying to feel numb
Dru-d** on the tongue
n***a, I ain't feel nothin'
Eyes all low, prayin' for the summer
I writing in my notebooks praying for a come up
At least that's what I said
I was really writing just f**in' know I wasn't dead
I ain't trying to see bread, I just wanna be heard
Some n***as get sentenced before they say a f**in' word
Seems out of order
Runnin' to the border
With my middle finger up to the court and the coroner
Tripped on a rope, fell in a corner next to a foreigner
Didn't speak my language, but he said he knew my name
And he didn't know my story, but he said knew my pain
Dropped a tear in the sand and he told me go back
Looked down at the dirt, felt my vision go black
Came to in a dark room
In the background a dark tune
Notepad, pencil and a harpoon
So I write this with a sliced wrist
Blood drippin' on the wheel
Cuz I'm drivin', no license
Tryna find a way to keep alive my vices
Cuz without 'em I'm lifeless
Side of the road, saw the kids on the rope swing
Then I started choking, vital signs sloping
Then I heard a kid tell me I should just smoke dreams
Tried to tell him all I have is nightmares
Even in the day time, cause there's no light here
At the same time I said that I heard a gat click
Looked down at my chest
Saw a mag from a semi-automatic rip through my fabric
Everything went red
My chest kept breathing, my head started bleeding
The blood in my eyes started seething for a good reason
As the horror started peakin' I began screaming
Woke up from my dream and I was still bleeding
But the looks can be deceiving
Checked in the mirror, saw the face of the behemoth
Then I went back to sleepincause I am my own demon