AdoTheGod - BEHEMOTH lyrics

Think I'm the only muhf**a in a room of bodies Thanking Jesus that my crew around me I ain't got a Judas by me I'm trying to keep a watchful eye out for Illuminati They might gut me out and try and put a tomb inside me But I'm already dead inside Pen in my hand and the pen in sight From a couple misdemeanors that I did last night And my head ain't right, I got d**h in mind I woke up with a scream and cold sweat Night vision's grotesque Now I'm like f** it, that's progress Before I couldn't sleep for weeks I could f**in' swear that I could see the demons creep And they're seeking me I could f**in' feel the reaper breathe f**in' see the demons teeth n***a, this is way too real for me So I fear no man f** you, y'all n***as never shook me I never been a p**y I ain't a k**er, but don't push me Hail Mary full of grace, how could you overlook me? Few people understood me Loner with a backpack, hoodie, a sack of that goodie Brain in a fury, trying to feel numb Dru-d** on the tongue n***a, I ain't feel nothin' Eyes all low, prayin' for the summer I writing in my notebooks praying for a come up At least that's what I said I was really writing just f**in' know I wasn't dead I ain't trying to see bread, I just wanna be heard Some n***as get sentenced before they say a f**in' word Seems out of order Runnin' to the border With my middle finger up to the court and the coroner Tripped on a rope, fell in a corner next to a foreigner Didn't speak my language, but he said he knew my name And he didn't know my story, but he said knew my pain Dropped a tear in the sand and he told me go back Looked down at the dirt, felt my vision go black Came to in a dark room In the background a dark tune Notepad, pencil and a harpoon So I write this with a sliced wrist Blood drippin' on the wheel Cuz I'm drivin', no license Tryna find a way to keep alive my vices Cuz without 'em I'm lifeless Side of the road, saw the kids on the rope swing Then I started choking, vital signs sloping Then I heard a kid tell me I should just smoke dreams Tried to tell him all I have is nightmares Even in the day time, cause there's no light here At the same time I said that I heard a gat click Looked down at my chest Saw a mag from a semi-automatic rip through my fabric Everything went red My chest kept breathing, my head started bleeding The blood in my eyes started seething for a good reason As the horror started peakin' I began screaming Woke up from my dream and I was still bleeding But the looks can be deceiving Checked in the mirror, saw the face of the behemoth Then I went back to sleepincause I am my own demon