A never ending nightmare but I cannot decide
If it’s a byproduct of memories or pride
Communicate the symptoms, or should I even try
Maybe it’s all just my state of mind
This never ending moment just never seems to die
But this is when I realize
That it’s so typical of the way that I feel
Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way
Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away
Just give me something real that I can hold onto
So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to
I never want to
Just a simple gesture meant to signify
The will I’ve fought so hard to keep alive
Another complication but I won’t question why
My best attempts cannot control my own demise
Why do I strive to make you, as dead as I feel
Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way
Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away
Just give me something real that I can hold onto
So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to
I never meant to hurt you despite all your surprise
But I locked you up with everything
I tried but couldn’t find
You never meant to scar me from what I could surmise
But my superficial wounds are scabbed
With the words that you’ve advised
And in this ma** confusion you’ve rendered me unkind
And only sacrificial crucifixion can
Justify the crime
Now life looks better through your eyes
Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way
Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away
Just give me something real that I can hold onto
So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to
I never want to