Absolution Project - State Of Mind lyrics

A never ending nightmare but I cannot decide If it’s a byproduct of memories or pride Communicate the symptoms, or should I even try Maybe it’s all just my state of mind This never ending moment just never seems to die But this is when I realize That it’s so typical of the way that I feel Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away Just give me something real that I can hold onto So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to I never want to Just a simple gesture meant to signify The will I’ve fought so hard to keep alive Another complication but I won’t question why My best attempts cannot control my own demise Why do I strive to make you, as dead as I feel Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away Just give me something real that I can hold onto So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to I never meant to hurt you despite all your surprise But I locked you up with everything I tried but couldn’t find You never meant to scar me from what I could surmise But my superficial wounds are scabbed With the words that you’ve advised And in this ma** confusion you’ve rendered me unkind And only sacrificial crucifixion can Justify the crime Now life looks better through your eyes Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away Just give me something real that I can hold onto So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to I never want to