[Verse 1]
My life as I know it is endin'
So I'm pretendin' in this moment I'm
Splendid
But really I'm trippin'; been slowed with depression
It's like an addiction with no intervention
Welcome to the world of “regret and what could've been”
Where the clouds are blocking out the window that I'm looking in
Where my pa**ion's my pain and gift is a curse
Now it's been four months since I've written a verse
Sipping the worst liquor ‘til my world tips
Bury my self-esteem issues in this girl's lips
I've learned the answer's always no if you never ever try
I'd be lying if I told you that I never ever cry
I've lost time, lost the girl that I like
I've lost rhymes and stopped preferrin' to write
Suffered a hundred broken hearts in the past three years
And in fact these
Tears could've sunken Noah's Ark; f** I'm goin' hard
My head's f**ed up; the only times I'm happy now are when I get f**ed up
Sick of staring at the bottom of this red dumb cup
And if I can't save myself then I guess tough luck
[Hook x 2]
You tell me that you love me but it's been so long
Since that word meant something to me; I've been trying to dream
(But this sh** goes on and on, this sh** goes on and on)
[Verse 2]
And I can't change even if I tried
Take the number of the tears that are bleedin' from my eyes
Times the number of the years I've been keepin' ‘em inside
Plus then doubled by my fears that they're leaving me behind
Damn, you do the math ‘cause I can't
Show me how to deal with life moving so fast ‘cause I can't
Even with the pa**ion I have to just rap on a track
I've been trapped by the fact
That I'm slipping and I can't get a grasp
As a matter of fact
The thing I want most is a chance to go back
To the days where I was happy, didn't have to get smashed
And the days where motherf**in' Brandon could rap
Though they may tell you it's right
The things that make you cool in school
Won't help you in life
I wish I'd known that then, I mean
Ain't it stupid how I'm writing my regrets on a page?
Play the music
[Hook x 2]