Zen - Reminiscent Ballad lyrics

[Zen Verse 1](Phe) Nightmares been keeping me up I ain't been sleeping lately I hate to see her face (I hate to see her face) Her face been creepy lately Its fixated in place Memories vivid lately Reminded that I f**ed up And that ain't no secret lady My past been haunting me Take a breath and calm down But I'm so shaken I hate that sh**, had to go down I can't escape that fact Dark visions all in my dreams I k**ed us though I k**ed myself it would seem So I pen this ballad of requiem [Hook] (Phe) You're in my thoughts (Hey) You're in my soul (Hey) You're another loss Loss all control (Loss all control) And I think I'm never going back (Think I'm never going back) I think I lost my focus I focused on the enemy But lost it to a foe I know they see no difference (I know they see no difference babe) But you and I, we know You're in my thoughts (Hey) You're in my soul (Hey) You're another loss Loss all control And I think I'm never going back (Think I'm never going back) I think I lost my focus I focused on the enemy But lost it to a foe I know they see no difference (I know they see no difference babe) But you and I, we know (We do) [Zen Verse 2] (Phe) I hate the pain, I hate the pain Embedded in my veins And all that extra strain Embedded in my brain It keeps on stressing me out And now I've gone insane Take me away, take me away It'll never be the same In her eyes is malice Through my eyes there's damage Now she is damaged goods (Now she is damaged goods, and there ain't no way) And I see no way 'round it We were living in the moment But now I cannot stand it Cause I lost not in a moment With no understanding Of reality around me sh**, I'm so astounded Damn I lost my heart I just wish someone had found it To return it to its place The place where it was founded [Hook] [Zen] So I set it all motion When I wrote this Lost focus I threw this all away Hope you noticed that I noticed That's potent No fun And I know I have no right Because we're done I'm just lost inside my thoughts You can tell them that they won That they won (x2) [Phe] I tried, I cried Just waiting and hoping that you'd stay You walked out I saw you see it, then let go when it came around It's not me, I'm not her, I'll find it somehow I do, do I do babe, I do baby I do