Zen - Bruised Ego lyrics

[Verse 1] The thoughts in my head are demeaning The thoughts I had bred are defeated The thoughts of a failure, I thought that I had failed here With a fair share of weak tracks mixed with emotions of my failures What the f** you mean? Talking bout bravado What the f** you mean? Rocking at the bottom Rocking it, I rocked the sh** Ate it up and followed At least I gave it life I would have hate it to be hollow I tell myself in hope that my aim ain't out of reach I tell myself in hope that what I'm aiming for, I'm making for I'm playing roles I'm made and rated for f** you degrading for? If we were face to face Maybe I would rate it more The hate is old fashioned I hate it But I ain't sh**, so n***as say they hate this So face it, when its said and done The confidence is gone when the circumstances changes [Hook 1] I dropped my first tape and I ain't get the play I wanted The ones I desired I would have retired Even before my career had started I was like "damn man I'm done" I was like "yea man you won", I'm tired And I ain't got no feelings to lose Turns out that my ego was bruised But its alright [Verse 2] It wasn't really But was it really Something to hang on to when the pressure is above the ceiling Hanging over heads raining down is the commentary Giving play by plays of the days spent restoring feelings Thinking bout all the kids you better than Kids 18 rap like veterans And that would put all this sh** in doubt Make me run away, boy I'm lost, I'm in Neverland Its the cycle that never ends I'd never end on a whim that I'd never win I never win, in fact I'll just let it end The little men bring terror, I just let em in Hoping that my fear is what will drive me To strive for more than what I'm better than I realized all the fear inside me Makes me humble and a better man [Hook 2] All the doubt in my life Helps keep me inspired I'm not a liar I promise I will be someone before my time expires I be like "yo man I won" I still know where I'm from, inquire Still don't got no feelings to lose Turns out that my ego was bruised But its alright