Verse 1 I've been hurt I've seen the worse Im living with a curse I've tried to fight my demons yet they spawn right out the dirt I swear they keep looking up at me like I'm in a skirt Every time I seem to turn around they all disperse My backs against the wall who the f** do I just call Countless times I asked for yall but in the end yall watched me fall This is real sh** said id be better off dead I'm so lost in the sauce Ima zombie in my head I'm just fed up with my life I can't seem to do right why I'm spilling how I feel cause im alone again tonight I can't compete with a Porsche that has the power of a horse if I could I would just know I care about you girl I made mistakes that done cost me Done things that were costly Escaped a drive by I'm lucky I ain't get caught b Forever I'll be tainted you see the blood that has faded Why I'm so adjacent complacent as well as patient 2016 really screwed me like a screwdriver Ever since then I've been to trying to re ignite like a forest fire Adding to the flame I guess gasoline ain't the multiplier I need a intermission so I could find me a new supplier Bridge I've been contemplating whether I should stick to this music Whole time it's the only reason I ain't abusive Boy this sh** f**ing saved me while these streets raised me Ain't no way to phrase it man this sh**s freaking crazy Hook I done had my back against the wall Trynna rope a dope buy some time and just stall You don't know me roughtweiler I am dog I'm tired of this sh** i swear that's on god Verse 2 My living situation has been kinda hectic I swear to fix this issue Ima need a medic I ain't seen my mom in a long while I wonder what she's been doing she ain't been on file sh** ain't been the same since my grandpa died Ever since you left my wings were clipped I can't fly Only time I feel alive is when I'm on stage It's as if my heart starts beating once the beat gets played I feel a gap between this sh** its as if it was a gage I can't stand these rappers on hearing em fills my rage Ive been stressed out snapping Back pack rapping smoking cancer sticks to calm my levels I swear this sh**s devil Bridge I've been contemplating whether I should stick to this music Whole time it's the only reason I ain't abusive Boy this sh** f**ing saved me while these streets raised me Ain't no way to phrase it man this sh**s freaking crazy Hook I done had my back against the wall Trynna rope a dope buy some time and just stall You don't know me roughtweiler I am dog I'm tired of this sh** i swear that's on god