Zane Smith - Black Life (Depressed) lyrics

Welcome to the black life Drowning inside my mind It's light but it get dark sometime They said search and you will find Throwing two cents, so I stack loose change But they don't really know interpretations of my brain Giving advice? How you wanna live yo life? What's wrong or right? Peace at night must be nice Life's a pie, I want my slice! Parents said better be polite, is that right? The way it seems, those demanding get everything I'm starting to see, starting to learn Everything just don't go my way Day-by-day, each mistake, that I make Feeling like running away to a place Where no one knows my name, feel my pain? Bout sick and tired of the same ol' same The same ol' game, no improvements I keep losing, tryna keep it moving But I'm going round in circles I been hurting been feeling worthless Like what's my purpose? Sip moscato, downed that bottle Tryna solve my problems, they got worse I yell, I slur, I curse Probably should've prayed first Probably should've read a verse Haven't even been to church Everybody else seem to know my worth For what it's worth, giving no f**s Middle fingers up! Black thoughts make me so irrational! Ninety-five down Old National Windows down, music blasting f** this sh**! f** that b**h! s** my dick! Blah blah! This and this! I ain't rich b**h, but I got dreams Drifting from where I'm s(up)posed to be Going outside gotta show my teeth Clean my face, like it's okay At ain't all good, nah it ain't all great Asking me, where's the positive energy? b**h are you hearing me? It's the pain that you don't see, living depressed I could give a f** about the way I dress Who the f** is you? I ain't tryna impress! As of late I been real stressed, thinking about what's next See I got a lot on my mind, but like half the time I guess I should be thankful that I'm still alive I guess I should be thankful that I've survived I guess I should thank God That little bit of light, in my black life! - Zane Smith