I always wanted you You're such a bitter pill to swallow You're the lump inside my throat Don't watch me choke Don't watch me choke Don't watch me choke You never knew my name 'til you saw me up on stage The lavender lights The way that they cried It had you reaching up to me The one from my dreams Like an angel or queen With a scarred up heart But a nose like a fiend Had her crawling to me On her hands and her knees From her castle of gold Through the dirt on the streets I could never forget that look behind your eyes When you got in my car for the very first time I always wanted you I always wanted you I always wanted you I always wanted you You're such a bitter pill to swallow You're the lump inside my throat Don't watch me choke Don't watch me choke Don't watch me choke Who knew what we'd become Searching for soul in bottles of rum We were playing with fire Playing with guns Writing our names in tainted blood And i wish you had been In love with me then The things that we felt Were more than pretend All the bridges we built were crumbling Crumbling, falling from under me Falling from under me But i'm begging you Cling to me, cling to me 'cause I know that you need me so desperately And i'm falling I'm falling I'm falling down I always wanted you I always wanted you I always wanted you I always wanted you You're such a bitter pill to swallow You're the lump inside my throat Don't watch me choke Don't watch me choke Don't watch me choke I always wanted you I always wanted you I always wanted you I always wanted you I always wanted you