Zack Burner - I Feel Like Myself Now (True Potential) lyrics

Hook: Top of the game, tried to blow my brains, it didn't work That's the truth on how I really got my name Thinking about my dad performing with his art, writing music is the only thing that keeps me alive Besides the games that he bought that remind me of him My life is a game, where I begin When I die, I know I'll be walking him 'til then I'll keep my eyes closed and focused on God I can say I'm feeling like myself now Let the anger in my soul fuse with my heart now Cuz my past life makes me like I ain't sh** now Even though my friends say Zack, you are the sh** now I can say I'm feeling like myself now Let the anger in my soul fuse with my heart now Because my past life makes me like I ain't sh** now Let me show why I say I ain't really sh** now Verse: Lost my dad at the age 13 Forced to be a man at the age 13 Tried to k** myself at the age 13 I said muthaf** school at the age 14 Could been the sh** at the age 15 Got my a** f**ing kicked through my years of a teen Started talking sh** to my mom at 16 First mixtape at the age 17 Almost got k**ed by some n***as in the streets No scholarships at age 18 Got in college by the age 19 Turned 20, my mixtape just hit the streets The Zack Burner Trilogy on 4/20 In Cell 20, at the age 20 Mama said Drew, you don't listen to me Now you stay there, I don't really care I spent 7 days in Cell 20 Writing lyrics on how I'mma come back in the streets Got so muthafukin mad that I cry on my beats Took a f**ing lot of time to get the f** off of the streets Get back f**ing home, Mama on that bullsh** I was supposed to go perform, she said I don't give a sh** You stay yo a** home, do the right thing I said I'll stay home, but I'm doing my thang Her diabetic boyfriend that was enough He's a pain in the a**, everyday he will fuss Mama talk a lot of sh** saying I cuss too much That's the only thing I can do cuz I love you too much I pick up your gun, cuz I said I had enough Run to my bathroom, then... I looked at the gun, mad as sh**, pulled the trigger, what I remember was the bullet smoked my ear, what the f**, I'm alive? Why the f** I cannot die? What is the f**ing reason I still am alive? Why the hell did I wake up from a daydream of flashback with the bullet in my hand with some blood on my shirt? My hand, fingertips, get smoked, holding the bullet, got permanent burn marks above my right ear Still I live to be reborn and alive, I really shouldn't have no fear... Nobody gives a f** 'bout muthafukin tears Just because of the fact I couldn't live my years I turn 21, bustin' juugs in the streets Life with no father, young man on the streets Ask for something one time, a lot of n***as got beef Had to live through a struggle, I couldn't really eat Slept a couple nights in the muthafukin park My family cussed me out, why the f** you in the park I knocked on your door, 2 o clock in the dark Mama kicked me out, so I slept in the park They don't really give a damn, I cry in the dark All my life I've been nice, I blame my f**in heart They say I'm in the game, my life is on pause I don't really know why, somebody pressed start Jesus, ignite the flame my soul Traumatized by your light, I wanna go home So sick of the world, there's dark in my soul So young as a man, a man with no soul He hides in the dark, his heart is pure gold So pure are his words, his words are so cold No soul in a man, a man with no words So cold are his words, his words have no soul Just facts, he relax, young man with no kids k**ing himself by slowly smoking blacks To be the age 21 and simply state facts Juryan, the one they really call Zack So focused and determined to really not look back All I have is my dead sister's raps When a n***a talk sh**, it makes me suicidal I listen to God, cuz He is my idol I'm a muthafukin god, God of Wavedash Wrote over 7000 songs on my life being bad I listen to the Wave, that's how I rap fast If a n***a talk sh**, his beat will get thrashed No remorse, that's a corpse, I body bag trash Hate me all you want, yo flow is still a** Be a muthaf**in man, and battle me n***a You n***as wanna diss, just meet me on the pad Hook: On top of the game, tried to blow my brains, it didn't work That's the truth on how I really got my name Thinking about my dad performing with his art, writing music is the only thing that keeps me alive Besides the games that he bought that remind me of him My life is a game, where I begin When I die, I know I'll be walking him 'til then I'll keep my eyes closed and focused on God I can say I'm feeling like myself now Let the anger in my soul fuse with my heart now Cuz my past life makes me like I ain't sh** now Even though my friends say Zack, you are the sh** now I can say I'm feeling like myself now Let the anger in my soul fuse with my heart now Because my past life makes me like I ain't sh** now Let me show why I say I ain't really sh** now I can say I'm feeling like myself now Let the anger in my soul fuse with my heart now Cuz my past life makes me like I ain't sh** now Even though my friends say Zack, you are the sh** now I can say I'm feeling like myself now Let the anger in my soul fuse with my heart now Because my past life makes me like I ain't sh** now Let me show why I say I ain't really sh** now