Yungen - My Reality lyrics

Intro] So Yungen, when I heard this track I knew you poured our your heart on it. So all the people respect that you’re sharing this right now. And giving them a piece of your life from the left side of your chest Real sh*t, we ain’t watering nutting down [Verse] I just turned nineteen, thinking about all the sh*t that I’ve been through All the sh*t I got out of, all the sh*t I got into Everything that I rushed, everything that I think through The fact I’m still here, I think it’s sutting to drink to Cah there’s man I’ve grown with that ain’t made it They’re gone for good and it burns me to face it No one really understands blud, I hate it Is this the real world or are we living in the Matrix? Or is the Matrix the real world? I’m still stressing, tryna find myself a real girl Sometimes I kick and think ‘Does she even exist?’ And if I choose to fall in love, that’s only me at risk Fake man will say I’m soft, real man will relate Only man that’s got their mind right can really debate Not everyone knows why we out for this cake We ain’t tryna raise our yout’s in no council estate [Wheel Up] I had to pull that one up [Verse] I just turned nineteen, thinking about all the sh*t that I’ve been through All the sh*t I got out of, all the sh*t I got into Everything that I rushed, everything that I think through The fact I’m still here, I think it’s sutting to drink to Cah there’s man I’ve grown with that ain’t made it They’re gone for good and it burns me to face it No one really understands blud, I hate it Is this the real world or are we living in the Matrix? Or is the Matrix the real world? I’m still stressing, tryna find myself a real girl Sometimes I kick and think ‘Does she even exist?’ And if I choose to fall in love, that’s only me at risk Fake man will say I’m soft, real man will relate Only man that’s got their mind right can really debate Not everyone knows why we out for this cake We ain’t tryna raise our yout’s in no council estate Like, no one really wants to lose their life I grew up on my mum not really moving right I’m used to it, it’ll probably shock the [?] Every minute claiming she’s committing suicide And that sh*t breaks my heart cah I love her to bits After all we’ve been through, she’s still my mother and sh*t So every time that she cries, I try to hug her with grip You only get one ma, there ain’t another that fits Thinking about my little sis, nine years this year She got diagnosed with Crohn’s, it still brings back tears I nearly saw her pass the away, the worst of my fears I thank the lord every day man that’s she’s still here I remember when me and Gem thought we lost our mum She took me in straight away, I can’t forget what she done When my other big sis was in a better position It’s like she wanted to see me in prison Sometimes I think they’re forgetting I’m here Chasing my dream, I need to keep stepping, I’m near Made mistakes in the past, I’m regretting them clear There’s a difference between crying and shedding a tear I shed a tear for the good times, cry for the bad times I’ve had some happy days, but more made times I’ve seen my ni**a Stiff get birded Secretly I dropped a tear when I got the verdict Thinking about Big Nose, the day he came off his bike All the mandem was there, that was one fu*ked up night I remember looking at his bro and he had no fear There ain’t no sh*t you wanna see in no young buck’s eyes I just wanna go back and do well in school Go and link Big Ree man and go kick ball ‘Cause if I didn’t fall off, maybe I would’ve made it I just wish I could change it [Outro] Wooh, that was emotional man, that’s pain. R.I.P Rio, R.I.P Reece