Yung Ro - Pain & Depression lyrics

[Yung Ro] Dear Serenity, I'm sorry I'm just doing what I got to And this is the truth, your daddy loved you before you saw you I just wanted you to shine, daddy grew up too hard With no friends no money, just brought me closer to God And I can't stop thinking, that I won't live too long But if you ever miss your papa, just listen to his song But don't listen to me wrong, understand my love Critics may judge the way I speak, and cla**ify me as a thug A nobody loud mouth, who just won't shut up Full of pain full of love, full of d** f**ed up What's up, Yung Ro put his life on wax I ain't no rapper feel my pain, now put some mics on that You can't disappoint me, I'm a man you a man But you ain't God and you ain't me, so I don't expect you to understand I see evil painting pictures, in my head so clear Voices plotting on my soul, I swear I felt it in my ear I wanna live a normal life, but dog a n***a doubt it I done got so use to being high, I can't see a regular life without it Dear God I'm scared to die, but I'm ready to kick it with you But I know you will never call me name, until you say I'm through But until then it's f** everybody, I love nobody Call that damn Ro, Rizzo Mr. Nobody I can't even trust my dogs, cause they don't love me I try again and again, but somebody always f** me They say I'm lucky, you blessed cause God chose you But I wonder if they had the chance, would they try to switch shoes Dear God it hurts so bad, when nobody loves you Sometimes I wish I didn't love em, cause they couldn't hurt me like they do So look at me full of hate, full of love gone crazy Just me and my baby, one deep with my 3-80 n***as shady, so I been kicking it with nobody lately Praying for my loved ones, and even the motherf**ers that hate me I am love I am pain, depressed and hoping I am anger Yung Ro, I'm a walking emotion (*talking*) I see it, in your eyes You're always waiting, for something bad to happen You can't trust nobody, you said it yourself you can't relax You can't hardly, even smile [B. Booker] My step-dad never liked me, tried to turn my mom's against me When I found that out, feel like I had the laws against me So I went to my room, packed up my things and burnt quickly Never have I ever, seen myself move so swiftly A few months pa**ed, the house is different since I'm gone When I pick up the phone, it's mom's ready for me to come back home Only 17, my girl a few years older Both of us young, dealing with these burdens on our shoulders It's been damn near a year, and life's got cold f**ing my lady with no rubber, now her stomach's on swoll Seems like this life I love, has been f**ed up since day one Now on August 24th, I'm expecting a son My first thought was a baby, gon hit you where it hurt The first thought of making fast money, was snatching a purse So that night I dressed up in all black, and did that Did the crime one deep, cause on yourself you can't rat Quit school, and on the football team gave up my spot And took somebody's starting position, hustling on the block With the thousands I won for, had to do the do Bought three pounds from my ese partna, and he fronted me two Now I'm hustling full time, with my mind on my ends Me and my boo and a soldier, that she carries within Three days straight sometimes, a week hustling away from home Baby mama's alone, stressed I'm always gone But when a n***a finally did, make it back to the pad I walked up to hug and kiss her, cause I knew she was mad [Yung Ro] I done got to the point, where sh** don't even affect me no mo' I use to be a bi-polar child, back in 1994 But time pa**ed mo' problems, and a n***a still standing After being abused neglected, depressed and abandoned I was stranded, a live walking loose canon I use tp pray for the pain to stop, now I only pray for understanding I'm on some fo' foot prince sh**, but it's only been two half my quest I ain't got time to rest, I'm still here so I know I'm blessed But I can't help to think about, the ones I love who so selfish And when they need somebody to talk to, they run to Ro so helpless And I would go breathless, and hang myself from a tree Before I do the thangs to y'all, that y'all n***as done done to me But n***a f** it, who said life was 'spose to be fun A bigger heart than a brain, that's the life of the chosen one My girl say I worry too much, and I'm always stressing I swear I seen the pain in her face, when I was gone off X And I love nobody, because nobody love Ro And it's M-O-B, with my and my big bro And you down for life, when you f**ing with Yung Ro Because I'll hit a n***a I love, before a n***a I don't know And ask for a hoe, she gon get that do' Or make herself useful, and drive my click to a show See I could be a pimp, with some thangs that I say to women But past relationships, got me thinking that I ain't made for women I'm a walking mess, full of pain inside Catch myself staring at kids, seeing a part of me that died Somebody shed a tear for me, cause I ain't got no mo' Put too much trust in my n***as, and bad run-in's with hoes It never fails money and p**y, will help you see the truth You wanna see how real your n***as is, then introduce these two I put that on my T. Lady, I'm a real living witness But I'm tired of talking to y'all, so get the f** out my bidness