Yung God - My Life As A Prisoner lyrics

[VERSE 1] Eyes red, shirt collar soaked up in tears My first charge and these n***as done hit me with 15 years Gang bangers, k**ers, s** offenders is all in here I'm only 18 these closed walls got me stressing My life already over it's marked forever on my record I get out, job applications all gone get rejected I close my eyes and see my mama cry when i got arrested The court denied my only appeal thats what i f**ing Expected Three n***as jumped me the guards looking like it's nothing And by the time they broke it up i had a f**ing concussion I gotta be a criminal to make it here or i'll die So how im gone learn my lesson when i have to fight to survive Real talk when they turn the lights off i cry This n***a tryna rape me i ain't take a shower in three weeks I done lost weight n***a, i done lost the will to eat It hurts to hear my mommas voice when she visits me [VERSE 2] When i sleep and dream it's nothing but black clouds and sh** I seen this rich n***a get off and he done raped a b**h The court system done made me a prisoner in my own head And some times for 24 hours i just sit in my bed Im on the edge i'd probably be better off if i was dead The only thing that keeps me alive is to prove the world wrong Ain't heard from the n***as i called friends in so long I sit and wonder who on the outside is thinking bout me And if they heard i died today would they f**ing miss me? I feel my heart beat, besides that the sh** is empty I swear the mins feel like hours, the hours like days, the days are like a month And i can't even stunt i done contemplating shooting up I see my momma through the gla** but that ain't enough The last human touch i got was when i punched a n***a These metal bars make you wanna bust a n***a, k** a n***a for real