Yellowcard - Up Hill Both Ways lyrics

Everytime I try to read between the lines I'm left wondering that I did so wrong Everytime I try, try to rationalize When everyone went wrong why didn't we die? Everytime I think about what it would be like without all the things you give to me All these thoughts keep runnning thru my head Nothing to beleive Look back find the things I lost There's nothing left there so it seems Up hill both ways Nothing left to say I don't know how I made it this far I don't know how I made it last this long I don't know why I try All these things keeps going thru my head Don't know which way to turn Each path goes up hill both ways Nothing but dust Since I learned, up hill both ways Nothing left to say I don't know how I made it this far I don't know how I made it last this long I don't know why I try Up hill both ways Nothing left to do now I don't want nothing today