Xzibit - 1983 Remix lyrics

I had to write this in blood, cause the ink wouldn't stick I sold five to six million but, yo, that really ain't really sh** It was supposed to be different, we was supposed to ride out But tumach shot his girl, then shot himself in the mouth Then the steady game form very soon fell apart 'cause when you just doing all, with no loyalty in your heart It's like catchin Alzheimer's all these n***as forgetting where they're coming from And they're slowing down, wait a minute, what we're running from? This what we're supposed to do, here's where we're supposed to be I hated MTV for trying to play me like a mockery But that don't bother me, I just fulfill my f**ing contract Small price to pay just to get ya piece of mind back My back, backfire, a**a**ination of my character Just to makes some millions off America My younger sister, Erika, just adopted a child My older brother served fifteen, he made it out Even though my father loved me, I ain't seen him in a while Had to fight my baby mama, b**h, give me my n***a now 'cause He's running out of time and I need him to understand The way the superior man had build a brand n***as talk about my taxes, I done paid Uncle sam I'm surviving 'cause the mind's eye's quicker than the hand Heartbreak, disappointment, my mother died when I was nine, I just wanted to join her Naw Mr. Joiner, you get to California, I got something for you to do It was like I was annointed Resurrected, found my purpose, I remember meetin' Dre, being nervous when I would kick my verses I was virtually worthless My whole life was a circus I was sleeping with serpents And I thought it is worth it I got a call from Paul, told me sh** wasn't working Exchange words, I told him tell me that sh** in person He probably told Em, and by the way did he said it unapologetic twisted made about him I seen Slim and he said he didn't recognize me Was it that or did he let another man define me? I don't know, but now I gotta get this all behind me Follow my calling when I used to follow n***as blindly I wish I had a better relationship with my uncles Blood relatives I could turn to when I'm feeling trouble And talk about my struggles My uncle John Nail, he only put me on the phone with different females And this is such a such, nephew, tell her, what's up? Ain't even ask about Tremaine and Gallen?...., growing up f**, I drink it all and I smash the bottle Self medicated numb, but I'mma feel it tomorrow It feel like pain and sorrow was like a second skin But now that pain was gone I got my second wind Only the strong live long, you better settle in I'm fighting forever, I will never let the devil win 1983, that's where my journey begins I searched every word for strength, only find it within This for me and my kid, still dying to live Living life to the fullest 'till I see you again