XXXTENTACION - A message to tina belcher lyrics

I dream so much and I just can't seem to find an answer for what I'm living for in general I can't keep living like this, its breaking my heart day by day I mean who's to say you find an answer when there isnt? What if you just die? What if life as we know it is all a dream? What if we live for no reason? What if we just disappear when you die? Should I cling to life? Or should i just k** myself? So many contradictions, contemplation It's getting harder and harder to mask my pain I can't tell if i wanna live or if i wanna die Please save me