X|F - Disconnected lyrics

[Hook] Lately I been feeling so damn disconnected Down on my luck and now I'm decompressing Wax 'n whiskey how I hide behind depression Never answer when she call she still don't get the message Lately I been feeling so damn disconnected Down on my luck and now I'm decompressing Thought I needed you until we lost reception I never answer when she call, she still don't get the message Lately I been so damn disconnected Pour a 4 in the two and slow it down a second First she loves you then she block you feeling disrespected I never answer when she call, she still don't get the message [Verse 1] Am I numb or exhausted Ironically feeling thoughtless And blaming karma on losses My mind let me get off it Until I dive in a model She find ya thong in my closet Threw it away in the garbage Regardless I am not heartless My conscious shaping my art But my feelings have yet departed You started think about us sometimes, I know I'm not mistaken Ya feelings building, you calling and I'm evacuating I hit ignore, (for ya dumba**) As times pa**es like laterals We wasn't even compatible Saw the signs like an avenue An active alcoholic is accurate, yet erratical Want me black and snap at you Actin so damn irrational Jack up shots of Jack, and ya attitude us intangible About abandon you now you getting morning sickness I'm not ready to have a kid yet And now you gotta take the piss test It come out negative, now I gotta create the distance [Hook] Lately I been feeling so damn disconnected Pour a 4 in the two and slow it down a second First she loves you then she block u feeling disrespected I never answer when she call she still don't get the message Lately I been feeling so damn disconnected Down on my luck and now I'm decompressing Wax n whiskey how I hide behind depression I never answer when she call, she still don't get the message Lately I been feeling so damn disconnected Down on my luck and now I'm decompressing Thought I needed you until we lost reception I never answer when she call, she still don't get the message [Verse 2] You ever have to try to bury a secret too deep Something that you keep way deep inside Pride will have you too worried to speak But the conflict in my mind "Would I feel better if I said it ?" 'Cuz I thought of better lines that will be ruined if I did it But letting out is like always a better route Until you tour the tour, a detour and tearing your conscious out And I swerve in the HOV lane, like bourbon was in my mouth But the world is always 'gon see pain, what's making me special now, huh I mean my secrets aren't never my secrets, I've just always been the one that someone trust enough to keep it Even if that a mess, a monster, is still out there walking free And if I acted or take action then nobody would believe it Nobody defending me, 'cuz nobody else would foresee it Nobody will see the reason, his pyre's why you should be there I've cried for the ones who needed A [?] don't wanna keep it The darkest family secrets never should be repeated.. [Hook] Lately I been so damn disconnected Pour a 4 in the two and slow it down a second First she loves you then she block you feeling disrespected I never answer when she call she still don't get the message Lately I been feeling so damn disconnected Down on my luck and now I'm decompressing Wax 'n whiskey how I hide behind depression I never answer when she call, she still don't get the message