Wye Oak - Watching the Waiting lyrics

When I made my plan There were some things for which I did not account I could not have seen myself here In a place I've been before Seeing everything all over As if I could really know As if I am sure And you say it's about time But you know I'm not used to having enough And there is nowhere I need to go And there is nothing left to do And I am sitting watching myself Watching you Watching the waiting When I move to stand My muscle memory is keeping me up Real memory is also similarly cruel To see his face in front of me Out of the blue, for no reason at all And I don't suppose I'll be able to tell him how sorry I am But like the guard settles in for another long night I keep watch for a danger and I may not recognize But I keep my eyes open All I know is this There are times when, to me You seem to glow from within And I wonder how this moment could possibly be And how much was of my choosing And what chose me And I couldn't care less When it all adds up And I feel I am closest to what I really am And there is nowhere I need to go And there is nothing left to do And I am sitting watching myself Watching you Watching the waiting