Worthwhile - Journal of a Mad Scientist lyrics

Late one night, I compounded the elements They boil and smoke in the gla** I knew well I risked d**h For this drug would control the very fortress of who I am I drank the potion from the flask And admire myself in the mirror For I felt a god in my own skin A cure to keep me on top of the world To free me from the reality I'm in I awoke in the morning, with a slumbering conscience My creation waits upon the shelf Double the dose So, begins the struggle of Man vs. Self My every act, and every thought Consumed by this drink My reflection the window, thin and pale, crooked grin I could barely recognize him I'd become a stranger in my own skin I have an angel on my shoulder And a demon on the other Whispering in my ears I only hear what I want to hear I am my doctor and my patient And now my remedy became my enemy With the same craving I sought to flee reality It seems this high is doing The same thing right back to me This old medicine has let the demons in "But there ain't no bottle in all the world Like that dear little bottle of mine." Back alley existence. What have I become? A wash-up, a has-been My head hung low in a gutter's puddle I saw a monster in my own skin I was not consuming something Something was consuming me I wish I would have been content, before this all began I threw it all away I destroyed. Didn't create Here's the journal of a mad scientist's end Here then, as I to lay down the pen And proceeded to seal up my confession I bring the life of an unhappy man, to an end