Wil Wagner - Song About Why I s** lyrics

Before if I f**ed up anything I only hurt me I never hurt anyone, but now there are real people my actions affect And I cannot stand it I cannot handle it I smoke too much weed and watch too much T.V I always run out of cigarettes, I lie about everything This used to be me but now it's feeling stale and friendly And I hate what I've become But I've never been so proud of what I've achieved And I steal from my friends, this is how I will tell them But sometimes I'm broke and when I am I'll do anything But it's no excuse 'cause none of us have a thing But you were all honest, I self-aggrandise my own bullsh** Borrow money for food and I spend it on booze And eat bread from the dumpster and use anything I can use to block out my thoughts Quiet my brain I still jump when the pain comes And I hate what I've become But I've never been so proud of what I've achieved And I just want my parents to think that I'm clever and excuse my lifestyle, but my lifestyle has become an excuse formed out of habit And I just want my friends to know that I'll never f** them around again 'cause people are everything And I sing these songs to synch up with the stragglers And I sing these songs because nothing else matters And I sing these songs out of fury and fear And I sing these songs 'cause without them I wouldn't be here with you