Wheatus - So Old 'N Told lyrics

When I was a boy there was some terrible sh** that went down. But still I hung around, to see if it would get better. And when I was a lad, well I was lonely and I was sad. But still I hung around, to see if it would get better. And when I was the boss, well there was so many things that I lost. But still I hung around, to see if I could win. But I'm getting so tired of this contest, who comes out on top man I couldn't care less. This smile you see I can do coz I practiced and I ain't ever gonna check this sadness. You trust truth bare witness. This sh** is old, my angers been in control since like forever, on my eleventh year. And what they stole, man I can never be whole not I ever, not even when I am no longer here. So I built a wall, I built it sturdy and I built it tall. You cannot get around. It's covered all in big graffiti. That nothing can erase. Coz it's a permanent mark of disgrace that I will always feel whenever I look in a mirror. You know I tried to hide, I tried to cover it all up inside. But it still it comes around. Still it comes around. I can never be normal unless I fake it, you say that you can but I know you can't take it. This song might be long but on truth it's a statement that I ain't gonna ever shake the memory of that basement. Trust. This sh** is old, my angers been in control since like forever, on my eleventh year. And what they stole, man I can never be whole not I ever, not even when I am no longer here. And in the night-time, imaginations breed deadly violence, inflicted my friends. Carry my brother, I think I'd rather, you had it better, write my own letter, found by my mother read it to no one in the end. But when I dream I dream of paradise, one where I live somebody else's life. Why can't I live somebody else's life? Before this fear was here I was alright. Before this fear was here I was alright. Before they led me down the stairs.