Weepings - Lost lyrics

I don't know where i'm going I can't say there's no surprise Drowning in hate and self loathing I cannot open my eyes I thought this was true Dependent on who? I like to distance myself from these fu*kers They are destructors I am contemplating my time spent on mother Earth with my brothers I'll take this by hand I'm stumped with no plan I might just find a way out of the sand Coping by hoping that there is an end I might disappear a bit But know i am here for it I don't know if i will find A way back into my mind