Waxahatchee - Bra** Beam lyrics

I took a pill I went to sleep for the first time in weeks You kept me up with all your manic energy I had to go, I put it out just like a cigarette I'd never be a girl you like or trust or you respect When I think about it, I wanna punch the wall When I remember everything I wonder if I'll always feel small You look for me in the broken gla** and Styrofoam Painting yourself as a sufferer, a stepping stone You work real hard to herd your friends into a gallery Narcissistic injury disguised as masterpiece I just want to run, yeah, I don't want to fight I just want to sing my songs and sleep through the night Under your criticism, self loathing and all your doubt I held you up above myself trying to ride it out I got lost in your rendition of reality All my offering rendered boring hyperbole Couldn't see the sun from there, just a beam I thought it would never come out Yeah, I had to Couldn't see the sun from there, just a beam I thought it would never come out Yeah, I had to leave