Watershed - Can't Be By Myself lyrics

Slam the door and grab the phone Like a pistol against my head Ask your machine where are you Damn it never knows Did i just leave a message or a suicide note? Try to s** the words back down my throat And i don't know how long i can hold out Hold on, hold on When i see ya girl i wanna change My clothes, my eyes, my hair, my face Gotta get away, so i can be myself Myself Now youre staring in the mirror Trying to see what i see Till you don't even recongnize yourself Darting empty bottles and broken gla** All tangled up in you, you But everyone's got someone they can't have I got you When i see ya girl i wanna change My clothes, my eyes, my hair, my face I'll be anything, but i can't be myself, myself I dont know how long i can hold out I don't know how long i can hold out Tonight this phone feels like a pistol Black and cold against my temple Did i leave a message or a suicide note (i don't know how long i can hold out) s** the words back down my throat (i don't know how long i can hold out) Gotta s** the words back down my throat When i see ya girl i wanna change My clothes, my eyes, my hair, my face And every word that gets away is going off like a cherry bomb Like a shmuck outta luck Full of sand in the clover Im bendin im breakin I'm shaking all over I'll be anything, but i can't be myself, myself, myself Got me slipping and sliding and tossing and turning And coming and creaming And crashing and burning I'll be anything, but i can't be myself, myself Myself