Warsan Shire - The unbearable weight of staying lyrics

I don't know when love became elusive What I know, is that no one I know has it. My father's arms around my mother's neck, Fruit too ripe to eat, a door half way open. When your name is a just a hand I can never hold, everything I have ever believed in, becomes magic. I think of lovers as trees, growing to and from one another, searching for the same light. My mother's laughter in a dark room, a photograph greying under my touch. This is all I know how to do, carry loss around until I begin to resemble every bad memory, every terrible fear, every nightmare anyone has ever had. I ask, did you ever love me? You say of course, of course so quickly that you sound like someone else I ask are you made of steel? are you made of iron? You cry on the phone, my stomach hurts I let you leave, I need someone who knows how to stay.