Villains (2) - Lonely Bastard lyrics

(They love me, they love me not) I live with a noose around my neck And the devil on my shoulder pulling me towards d**h Waiting for when I slip up next To whisper faults in my ears hoping I'll choose him instead The whole world's a cutthroat Fed all these insults Right down my throat Chokehold ‘til I scream “no” They love me, they love me not It really all depends on what I've got Why do I make time for people who could care less if I'm alive? Because if they don't love me then who else will I was born a lonely ba*tard A walking f**ing disaster With a pa**ion for being the worst and constantly thinking I'm hurt So long live depression, long live sin May you never stop worshipping your demons within May you always fight the battles that you'll never win Again and again and again They say that the gra** is always greener on the other side But everything's black and white when you feel left behind Let me suffer, let me rot Swallow me with everything I lost My mind is caught inside a slipknot Made out of anxiousness and everything I'm not Let me suffer, let me rot in my cell They love me, they love me not I can't tell People like me weren't meant to be happy We're meant to choke on our words with everyone laughing People like me weren't meant to be happy I'm not happy, I don't know how to be happy