Vices - Wither // Collapse lyrics

Every day it starts the same I see my reflection and nothing has changed How much longer do I have to last? I stare at the ceiling and the noise starts The voice is my own so I have to listen To every single criticism Every one of my mistakes Every moment I'm awake I'm so tired of being awake Every night I fall asleep Willing my spirit to retreat I don't eat and I don't sleep My body just endures My mind is wondering and my spirit is flailing This vessel seems eternal I didn't ask for this I didn't ask for strength Please just let me rest My sense of self-preservation is too strong to wither But every morning I wake up hoping for a way out A chance to collapse And I don't want to endure And I don't want to persevere I just want a way out of here