Vic Mensa - 10K Problems lyrics

[Intro] Yuh [Verse] n***as asking where I been at, I gotta recap it Relapsing D.R.U.G. habits Tryna move forward, depression been holding me backwards Recovery ain't a straight line What's going on like Marvin is I heard through the grapevine that I'm falling off I been on another planet, over they head with the last album still they didn't understand it Now I'm in a panic, scrambling for relevance from a bunch of people that I consider irrelevant The elephant in the room, is the music coming soon? If it gets you on will you jive, will you coon? Now I'm on 10 in this 4 corner room, dead inside like a baby that's aborted in the womb Overpressured and undervalued, I'm never enough I got a complex in believing I'm a f** up Then I got Complex feeding my demons and they read it and validate the reasons that I don't love us I left my woman cause I couldn't keep this sh** at home You can't be good with someone else if you ain't good alone See every girl that try to do me right, I did them wrong But even dogs get tired of chasing a bone I lash with violence and deal with the karma I broke a bottle on a n***a head out in Toronto then got extorted for $10,000 Honestly that was the least of my 10,000 problems My pops had a surgery on his neck and was paralyzed, It's a painful process watching your parents die And n***as look at my life and think I'm in paradise, don't know the blood I spilled over these parasites sh** is deeper than rap n***a, my right hand scammed me then framed the homie like a cla** picture So I went and thrashed n***as then that n***a twin brother called his brothers tryna come and clap n***as So I'm ridin' round with the strap n***a Beverley Hills police pulling up on me cause I'm a black n***a Now I got this gun case, facing 1-5, a lawyer's fees can't pay my mama not to cry Surrounded by homicide, I got survivor's guilt Wishing maybe I'd be better off if I got k**ed, wishing planes that I'm on would crash First cla** flight to an early grave, I'll be home at last I'd just look at the microphone and laugh, would I have ever picked you up if I knew what I know in the past Summer skies all overcast, if I don't make it to tomorrow then play this verse on my behalf I told my whole heart