The colors all fade around me. My view is smoky and desaturated. I used to love the way we were back when winters were still haunting and blue. I'm lonely but not alone. I'm skinny and distracted. I'll be happy to hold back the tears because I haven't cried in years. I don't feel like me anymore. I swallowed my anxieties and they've turned me inside out. I'm no longer waiting for you to call because I know you'll make me whole again. I loved you from your hat to shoes, I miss you more than severed limbs. I want to sleep, I don't want to dream. I'd rather be thin than famous. I'm lonely but not alone. I'm skinny and distracted. I'll be happy to hold back the tears because I haven't cried in years. I don't feel like me anymore. I swallowed my anxieties and they've turned me inside out. I'm no longer waiting for you to call because I know you'll make me whole again. I loved you from your hat to shoes, I miss you more than severed limbs. I want to sleep, I don't want to dream. I'd rather be thin than famous.