Vel 9 - If This Doesn't k** Me lyrics

(Intro) Yo, let this sh** take over my brain And everyday flowin' again And I'm flowing again, a nah nah Yo, let this sh** take over my brain And everyday I'm going insane... [Verse: one] You couldn't grasp what I have to say Master a**a**inate Don't let me make you feel like you don't understand, ask away This is an origin in which I'm derived from Standing in front of tables with food I'm deprived from Looking like a waiter but really I'm taking orders Serving up emcees with Latin flavor like the border They questioning they sons But answering to a daughter Thinking this the end of (hah).. This is the start of marauder the tomcat Slaughtering problems so modestly Probably causing a change The way I see these cats depositing they cash Her murderous raps, they do laps She'll eat up ya saving savings account Don't bet on her, don't do that Badder than all of this f**ery Lady Luck still ain't f**in' me More like Lucy and that's when she isn't loosely confronting me Id rather smoke a stogie to k** me faster And off me with my gla**es on So I can still work on my mastering (uh)... [Hook] And if this sh** doesn't k** me yo what will...uh.. Cus if this sh** doesn't k** me yo what will? [Verse:two] So let me tell you like this I'm not a superhero of any sort More like a villain and even that, yo I'm really short I played ball growing up so I know my sport I hustled halls during lunch so I know my court Second grade slanging my momma's sketches for a quarter Till someone hated on a sister and had to report her And then it all made sense to me It ain't about making a 10 cent piece It's 'bout making the memories So I took upon my own pen and began flourish Into a journey of the illest mysteries Otherwise known as life and d**h, she's a confusing b**h But ill still make her my wife, and friend And back then, I was a new booty Tryna get my flow into a groovy zone Rememberin' hoochies chirpin' On groupie phones Cus several birds like to flock like a feather Not a lot of homies I remember but we still meeting up Once a year like September, it's usually in the summer Cus it's warm in the San Gabriel Valley, call her Thundercrack Ally Cus her brains rattle, her bones shake Yo catch me on the outskirts One up, lates.. [Hook] And if this sh** doesn't k** me Yo what will? I said nothing.. And if this sh** doesn't k** me yo what will? [Verse:three] I stayed on top of my art like a cop rolling a stop..illegal as f** Slavery's obsolete yet my freedom is what?(Bullsh**) I stay questioning the circumstances In my own environment Pressured to look different, but never are they hiring Unless I pull back my bangs and cover up my baggage Cus never are they f**in' with savages k**in' on lavish tone Break her a**, smack her bones Leave her in a deadly state My mental state of mind will never devastate We moving a step forward onto the train tracks Got me to stop and wonder and pause on how my names fat So is it truth to be held behind the four letters Original taste when vela's her name Never gets better and here I am Stuck on my chance Balancing my a** on a tight rope Flipping my pants cus I might roll Step on the sidewalk sideshow And do the funky metropolitan walk in my night clothes And my eyes low, Period light flow I'm coming at them weak cats with the serious mic hold to choke And f** it, I'm feeling god Cus yelling and running was never my style, I'm here to walk (uh)..