VCTMS - Carefully // Caged lyrics

Watch me as I suffocate Medication to sooth my aches Numbs my constant fear of change Addiction is a slow decay Restless shakes bruised veins God will i ever fu*king feel safe I fell in love with my depression The only thing that was consistent I hated how empty I felt but at least it kept me distant Everything i love will slowly dissipate Everyone i know will be ripped away What's the fu*king point it's getting harder to pretend How do escape the relativity in this? Nothing is beautiful Nothing is forever That thought alone strips me of my efforts Maybe when i'm older I won't be so scared to die Maybe in time death won't be so fragile in my mind I fell in love with my depression The only thing that was consistent I've hated how empty I've felt but at least it's kept me distant Watch me as I suffocate Medication to sooth my aches Numbs my constant fear of change Addiction is a slow decay Restless shakes bruised veins God will i ever fu*king feel safe Addiction is a slow decay Feelings of neglect feelings of regret How the fu*k could I ever forget I'm addicted to despondency It bleeds into everything