I'm gnawing on the knowledge that I have been burnt And I'm learning things that I should've already learnt Everyone I ever knew was so kind and coy I was with a girl, but it felt like I was with a boy I can't even remember if we were lovers, or if I just wanted to But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms I held her in my arms but it wasn't you I will not k** the one thing I love In this world of wreckage, I look above Help me, Lord, help me understand What it means to be a boy and what it means to be a man I can't even remember if we were lovers, or if I just wanted to But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms I held her in my arms but it wasn't you