The decline is getting steeper The bottle is looking better Compounded by all the pressure I sit here, I wonder Is this how it's meant to be? All of the things that you told me Fly around in my head It gets easier they tell me I can't see that happening The doubt creeps in Solemn and cold One thought burns in my mind Will I even grow old? Will the frail bark on the family tree Be stripped away and plague me? Will the chemicals realign themselves And turn me into a shell of my former self? I know that I need to heal myself I will heal myself The only way I know how And I know I'll heal myself I need to mend And I'll numb the pain again The only way I know I just need this pain to end Although I feel the shiver run down my spine Your absence struck me harder than I thought it ever would The only way that I deal The only way I cope Is when I feel this liquor Burn down my f**ing throat You want me to carry on To go out and make you proud But the honest answer is I don't know how