V - The Daze lyrics

I dont remember what it was Or why Lost as I was In the dark Heart beating fast As I play the game Of d**h Pricking my skin all for fun? Or was it a test A test to see who would win? Me Or God Who would do me in I Used to enjoy hurting myself Remember it well the blood runnin down my arms Walkin around in a doze in a daze Half asleep all frggn day Numbin myself, party my life away whatever you got I'll be sure to take Its a mess Its a craze Its a messy crazy haze of nonsence thats what it is I wondered just as you have who I was I know who I am now just like i did back then You will always wonder it'll always be mistake But I went thru a lot for a reason it seems I finally woke up after many a days of not... And now lookin back it all feels like a dream.. a really ugly long one that is slowly fading