Utada Hikaru - Blue lyrics

I find hard to breathe As life just eats away At the faces that surround me They look tired today The lady at my table Doesn't want me here I just want to talk to her But would she laugh to my accent And make fun of me It doesn't seem like The blue sky's here for me There are no girls in here As far as I can see Only pin-up posters Looking down at me Watching papercups of coffee Growing cold before my eyes All the things I see That makes me realize I'm in this big world without you Nothing tomy name I never knew that Blue sky meant such pain I'm dying to be different In the coffee shop I lived to double strength Now my supplies are cut Oh, I'm older than my looks And older than my years I'm too young to take on My deepest fears I used to be confused But now I just don't know Since you left I've been watching Blue skies come and go