Useless Beauty - Convalescent lyrics

You live like an old woman Your heartbeat so slow you can count in one hand Things happen around you But you watch them as if they're on TV Wonder if they can hear you but you got nothing to say back You live like a starved person You would do the least to keep your energy You just wait half asleep for the change that would lush your days Wary to keep your bucket down looking at the world on your palm When someone makes you mad you just nod When someone does something funny you just grin Little boy born in December trying to catch up with January You're under probation just like everything else in your life It's barely started yet it's gone so fast Will you be happier when you get everything you ever wanted? (Somehow you'll make it but will you have your feet still? Somehow you'll take it but will you have your heart still?)