Unter Null - Godless lyrics

So many days I can't stop myself From fighting this monster that eats me alive So many times I've fought and I've tried To live for a moment without fearing my mind I hate this, yet live this, and it's bringing me down I feel like I'm standing on uneven ground The balance to life has been skewered so violent I'm so sick of this d**h-instinct silence So despondent and so somber, so frail So scared to begin for the fear I will fail I'm alone in this pattern and I can't call for grace I'm left in this mess that is such a disgrace I fear for my mind more than I fear for life The one thing worth saving is the love I deny For I feel so hollow, and I yearn to relent The control for some peace and freedom from this torment There's no one to save me and I can't save myself I would give my whole being for some kind of help But no one can stop this god damn monster so great All hope is now lost and it's too late I numb to forget, to quiet the noise I'm deafened by silence, I can't live with myself I numb to forgive, for myself can't forget That I could've been someone without any regret You lying man who tells a tale Of flawless love and peace of mind Of parting seas and curing blind Your lies my faith, there's no remorse You spin your tale with brutal force Your lies, my faith, my breathing grace I ran from life, I erased my faith I am so blind And seeing eyes are not the kind