Undercast - Elapse lyrics

I'm sick of spending every day Just watching myself fade away I'm sorry I could never be, something I'm not This isn't me angry, this is just me asking do we have anything left? I'm trying hard to keep my sanity This means so much to me ‘Cause I know I never wanted this to be, a mistake that haunts me endlessly I cannot bare to take another step Down a road that leads me far away, from the youth I had just yesterday I wish that I could find this somewhere else Life is always pushing forward; I never get the chance to catch my breath ‘Cause now I see that the cracks along the pavement mark the sleepless nights I've spent I reminisce perpetually on the past and how things could have been Cause I never thought I would be alone with nothing left ‘Cause I know I never wanted this to be, a mistake that haunts me endlessly I cannot bare to take another step Down a road that leads me far away, from the youth I had just yesterday I wish that I could find this somewhere else The only thing I'm good at is never giving in And I've never felt okay living in this skin I let everyone down when it might have mattered most, and the only regret I have - it was so easy to let this go Now I'm left with this harsh feeling of emotional distress that runs so deep What if I just learnt how to break through the pain I feel every day But I guess I'm doing better, so I'll complain about the weather ‘Cause I just keep praying that it'll rain like yesterday I would do anything just to feel young again I would do anything just be young again I would do anything just to feel young again I would do anything