Under Threat - Black Inertia Disintegration lyrics

How did it come to this? Once seemed like I had it But now it's gone For long time I waited For long time I believed Only to find my own disenchantment Complexity devouring innocence Reality crushing fantasy Selling out my blood for forgiveness Giving away joy to receive discontent Everything seemed clear before Now I don't know who I am anymore Silent dissatisfaction eating me up Sweet asphyxia growing inside There's nothing you say that will mean something for me There's nothing you do that will bring me back Slowly falling apart even when nobody realizes You see me smiling but I'm not there I hear you talking but I don't care Dense atmosphere of despair Silent descending to end Black innertia disintegration