Oh what am I waiting for A spell to be cast or for it to be broken? At the very last some wild ghost from my past come to split me wide open? If I bandage my eyes will you press in my hand a small simple token? I was born deaf or else you've never spoken I thought it was safe for me and my own I began hearing these voices in the dial tone And they come to me now though I dismembered my phone They say you wanna hear something that you already know If it comes from above but this one comes from below It says you are sleeping together but you will die alone I thought it was safe but the seed had been sown As a child I aspired to be a superhero Now I live with the corpses of the lives I let go Oh I know you all know how these things start to show I have been trying to make myself better So I can fare the fair or foul weather I write a song like a prison letter I write a song maybe to make me feel better It won't break free my fetters I know what came after but what happened before I began making memories at the age of four I learned to use words and I got jealous and bored Soon I'll be pa**ing out cold on the kitchen floor When am I gonna feel better? When am I gonna feel better When am I gonna feel better I have been patient for a long time now I've been a patient for a long time now I've been a patient for a long time now I've been a patient for a long time now And I will never be a younger man now Oh what am I waiting for A spell to be cast or for it to be broken? At the very last some wild ghost from my past come to split me wide open? No. If I hold out my hand there is nothing at all because nothing's the token I will be good though my body broken I will be good May I want for nothing at all