Twiztid - Dead Instead lyrics

[Intro] I wanna be happy Like people in pictures I see them back to walls I wanna feel better I wanna roll with myself without the help of drugs or alcohol I wanna be so strong Kind and friendly With drinks only to have what to talk about But when I come in contact With fathers I rather just go and shut my mouth [Chorus] I built these walls To keep this things in mind It seems these walls They'll lock me up in my mind I built these walls To help with my head It seems these walls would rather have me dead instead [Verse 1] [?] I don't really care anymore I know it sounds selfish But what am I helping it for No one really cares anymore I know it sounds helpless I know it sounds helpless [Chorus] I built these walls To keep this things in mind It seems these walls They'll lock me up in my mind I built these walls To help with my head It seems these walls would rather have me dead instead [Bridge] I wanna be happy Like people in pictures I see them back to walls I wanna feel better I wanna roll with myself without the help of drugs or alcohol I wanna be so strong Kind and friendly With drinks only to have what to talk about But when I come in contact With fathers I rather just go and shut my mouth [Chorus] I built these walls To keep this things in mind It seems these walls They'll lock me up in my mind I built these walls To help with my head It seems these walls would rather have me dead instead [Outro] Have me dead instead Have me dead instead It seems these walls would rather have me dead instead