Twisted Insane - My Counseling Session lyrics

[Intro] They say that music is a channel into every person's soul It is a key to mine I take the things that happen in my life and I channel them into my music If I didn't have this music- Who needs therapy when you have music? This is my counseling session... [Verse 1] Woke up to a buzzin' on my phone Maybe it was her or maybe it's someone who wanna come and smoke Obvious I'm wishin', n***a missin' faded Reminiscin' now we always dissin' I can only walk the border When I think about the kids and I kiss 'em on the lips Should I go and tell 'em 'bout the type of sh** you did Now I'm trippin'-- Maybe after time because I Really feel like you got up and stabbed me in the ribs I ain't kiddin' I can't even think of half of this sh** Always thinkin' bout my kids because somebody gotta do it You would rather be up in your favorite club n***as on your titties, feelin' pretty with a bottle of the fluid That's a shame, do you even know their birthdays? Or how my son did the spellin' bee and took the first place? Remember how you left 'em in the house all by they selves so you could go and get some dick That type of sh** is just the worst man Damn, that's the reason that the weather's gettin' colder They gon' remember when they get a little older I keep up with ya steady givin' you the shoulder You live up in the club, I thought a n***a told ya I would hit you up in case you wanna hold to havin' s** Then wonder why the f** I move a different b**h up in the house But sh** I thought I had the one until you find out from example Every b**h is bein' simple, takin' dick up in the mouth Now I gotta f**in' hit the road and Knowin' that you turned into a ho and I Every time I leave a door open b**hes always f** it up so all you can just go and die Does it really motherf**in' matter? People always tell me, "Homie it is what it is." But any which a way I go, I make sure all my (?) whatever they do [?] They're the reason that I live, I do it for my kids [Hook: Khadija Lopez] Oh, and I don't even know how I got with you I must've lived too much, I was on the road You know how it goes What else do you want me to say You know your vision Oh, I can admit my mistakes Cause then I get inspired I'm studio wide [?] [?] [?] [Verse 2:] Woke up to a buzzin on my phone Hopin' it's my daughter cause we really haven't spoke up in a while She think I do forget her but I never do And even though we get together you was still my very first child And you're probably feelin' like your daddy left you I sacrifice it all so I can make it in the game I got a little bigger and I made a little money but the feeling that you have for me will never be the same and I know it Knowing that it's feeling like I blew it Maybe that's the reason I be pickin' up the fluid I don't even feel like I should live I done have so many people in my face yellin "Twisted don't do it" It's the real me I give a damn if you don't feel me It's not like you gon' come up in the booth and k** me Never really got in with the pills and I know you told me that you never feel me but I bet you that you will be Raised in the belly of the beast Slept with the homeless in the street Nobody really know what I been through I was always pushin' with no shoes up on my feet Did it by myself nobody helped me [?] Homie you can do it too so why you mad? I was always bad, muggin' people when I meet em Never smile when I greet 'em cause I grew up with no dad I ain't trippin tho Puttin back the pieces of my life together wish I had a girl But sh** I always am alone you would think if I be k**in' with the record and the tours That I got a line of who*es steady blowin' up my phone So I wish up in the music for the answer I don't need the bottle anymore when I be stressin I just need a soundproof booth so I can leave you to the truth So hopefully I teach the lost youth a lesson My Counseling Session [Hook: Khadija Lopez] Oh, and I don't even know how I got with you I must've lived too much, I was on the road You know how it goes What else do you want me to say You know your vision Oh, I can admit my mistakes Cause then I get inspired I'm studio wide [?] [?] [?] [Outro: Twisted Insane] And that's real.. I didn't choose this path, you know.. This path chose me.. I'm just walking this motherf**er trying to figure out where it lead me to I've been through it all to get here.. I've walked through fire.. And I'm still here..