Twisted Insane - Beneath The Stars lyrics

[Hook x2] Walk Beneath the sun, Lie beneath the stars We grow upon the earth, And this is what we are [Verse 1] On the bathroom floor with a blade in my hand in a puddle of piss Over coming darkness thinking where did sh** go wrong if its coming to this Take a bottle of the Advil, hoping it'll k** me if I only go to sleep It's to late to go back now, sh**, so I slit my wrists now I'm in this sh** deep Looking at the blood run, a couple drips then sh** now it's on like a puddle Now I'm in trouble, nothing I can do right now, only run for my shuttle Blood started gushing I could feel my soul was rushing, I f**ed up and now my former self is leaving Everybody get they reasons and, this sh** is all exterior, no more internal bleeding I remember when I was a little kid, hide in trash can lids always suffering abrasions I would always talk to my friends like, "Time and time again another day another beatin'" They say time heals all wounds but I've been f**ed up ever since I was a child So troubled and wild, why you think in every school picture I never did smile Ain't been happy in a while But I remain humble, they tell me I'm an animal, what the f** else you expect? I grew up in a jungle And now I'm all f**ed up on the bathroom floor just sittin' here bleedin' Thinkin' 'bout leavin' before my son come in and see me not breathin' [Hook x2] [Verse 2] And now I'm all f**ed up with a bullet in my chest and I'm prayin' to Jesus Never did before but f** it if I go right now they'll be all [?] believers It's funny how n***as all get to praying when they get up in a situation If you go right now in the end, do you think God is the one you'll be facin' Maybe it could be satan, sh** maybe nobody could be waitin' Maybe we all end up in a f**in' box with a lid on top, sh** is up for debating But the fact of the matter is if I don't know then you don't know either Brain washed as a kid to believe in your parents' beliefs, just ask the preacher I was in the corner by myself looking at the other kids, knowin' I was different I was gifted, and it's been that way ever since I was an infant Brain off in the distance, Never thought my sh** could be rattled Lost in a den, cause I'm knowin' I be off in the pen if a n***a do tattle One bite of an apple, n***as sufferin' the root of all evil People that get shot and stabbed but nobody laugh at the murderin' of all people And now I'm all f**ed up on the bathroom floor just sittin' here bleedin' Thinkin' 'bout leavin', before my son come in and see me not breathin' [Hook x2] [Verse 3] In the bathroom with a gla** half full but a pool half empty Stumbling back, barely can walk, "Do you wanna take another shot?" Don't tempt me I will have enemized my own life from my own actions Learn from mistakes and every move that a n***a make will cause a reaction I blacked out last night all that I can recall was I was faded Standin' on top of a rock at a bonfire screamin' "I f**in' made it!" My life I f**in' hate it, I'm a full blown alchy My life's in danger, they tell me I'm a perfect stranger, just like Balki Feelin' so independent, feelin' like I was k**in' 'em, walkin' up on a station, I'mma hit 'em with venom like it was ten of 'em Fill 'em with ?? and then murder 'em with the verbal and people'll call it venomous But sh**, that's only life for the moment, how can I win when time's my opponent? I don't care so I'mma keep winnin' and push to the wind like I've been annointed I've been avoided by the whole world cause a n***a only had one pair of clothes Sleepin on the sidewalk, right there on the sidewalk, you people don't know And now I'm all f**ed up on the bathroom floor just sittin' here bleeding Thinkin' 'bout leavin', before my son come in and catch me not breathin' [Hook x2]