Open eyes roll out of bed again and go through the motions awake and unconscious. look in the mirror there I am again feeling so empty the greyest shade of sick. sometimes my eyes deceive I try not to blink I think I see the beauty again has it returned? then it's gone; the moment's lost sinking all over again this false sense of hope is far too much. I can only run so far before I tire and fall falling again and again I stay down. I wish I was someone I wish I was something I wish they could see me again I was trying too hard Fall apart, like so many broken hearts Infect my mind, like so many left behind Cross my heart, as I hope to die Twisting the knife so slowly As I crawl away again I want to be no one I want to be nothing I want to be invisible Until my tears have dried Fall apart, like so many broken hearts Infect my mind, like so many left behind Cross my heart, as I hope to die Twisting the knife so slowly As I crawl away again Crawl away...into one more day Just another shade of grey