Tsu Surf - Where Have You Been? lyrics

[Verse 1: Tsu Surf] sh** it feel like yesterday, I wanted to dress like you Hella b**hes, I was watching, wanted a Lex like you Ratchet on my right side, on the left bible Looking in the mirror, f** I look just like you I'm older now and I'm understanding women sh** you was just probably different Cause mommy was busy b**hin' But your distance took me right up off the court And put me in the kitchen To the blocks, still daydreaming about the court visions Used to stress over mistimes, still do Some n***as ain't know my name; I was just lil you Distance made me question, was he kin of me? Like f** being "lil you"... they gon' remember me Can you guess when I lost my virginity? You put something into me that made you a enemy Protect who?! Support what?! sh** I don't think you came to court once [Hook] Daddy where'd you go? You just walked away... I'm feeling like I never needed you Every time I'd see the mirror I looked away (Cause I looked just like you) Mommy said you was coming back to stay (mommy lied!) Said f** it and [...] (I tried!) I wasn't waiting for you for another day (Would still be standing by that door if I ain't realize...) [Verse 2: Tsu Surf] I can't cry for my mistakes, but it really would've been great They'd have to forget me I would've forgave you if you came late But you didn't, now I'm hanging with them gangs late Before I knew it, it was coke, dope, same plate The shackled hands and chained waist Looked at momma in that pained face Like, "Where'd her boy go?" cause she don't see the same face Sheriff keep telling a n***a like, "Sir, please stand straight!" Tired of looking at this judge in his damn face Momma ate more than she could sh** Every time I looked back it just made a n***a sick Fought the streets alone, you ain't defend me Went and replaced that empty space with a semi No time to think about why daddy ain't get me When I'm torn between these .38's or 12-12 skinnies Once I stopped playing ball you was done with me But I still got a shot; it's just a gun with me There's so much sh** to say, I need another furnace This song would never end if I was talking about my mother hurtin' It's for that lil n***a who daddy never walked through the doors Never got cleaned up; he never had chores Who know how he feel cause he never had joys If he ain't teach you they draw too, you better have force Never told me it could happen in broad day I had to find out the hard way You got a family now and I respect that And somewhere down the line I want just that Wife, kids, dog, big house... yup, just that Sound about right, trying to figure where I was left at Tug of war with your wife and sh** My hand shaking, hand shaking, trying to write this sh** Just needed the air, I've been through all type of sh** Movie clips, your boy could've got life and sh**... Movie clips, your boy could've got life and sh**... [Hook]