Trip Lee - Prognosis lyrics

Hey I still recall the day the doctor told me that I was sick And my mind keeps going back it was a trip Look I was thinkin He ain't know the facts Probably cause my heart couldn't get a hold of that He said that I was terminal and that it spread quick And my whole body was infected I'm desperate My minds racing at this point I wanna exit Cause all His tests suggested I be dead quick But honestly man I really shoulda seen the signs I was blind no I couldn't read in between the lines I was numb so I couldn't feel my fever climb But my whole system was foul (fowl) like comedic lines No way to treat it fine I staggered out like I was drinkin wine I wasn't even tryna think about of my plans for the evenin time All I could think was I was weak and dyin I was reminded of the life that I would leave behind And so I know it's headed for me soon and I'm terrified I'm afraid of what's coming and I'm scared to die But it ain't lookin good for me, now it ain't lookin good for me I know it's headed for me soon and I'm terrified I'm afraid of what's coming and I'm scared to die But it ain't lookin good for me, now it ain't lookin good for me Now I got home and it hit me in the worst way I've been sick with this disease since my birthday I was ridden with symptoms since my first day Head to toe my whole system in the worst state I was mentally ill, I was futilely mind Darkened in my understanding was a student of crime Havin eyes couldn't see cause I was truthfully blind Havin ears couldn't hear but couldn't do any signs Throat was an open grave, tongue used for the lies Snake venom under lips which I would use to divide Had chips on my shoulders was wounded aside Both my lungs collapsed inhalin 2nd hand pride Below the waist was just more of the same Feet swift to shed blood or somethin more was to gain Man it's bad blood simply pourin through my veins Can't ignore it anymore, ain't the story the same, I was in pain so I know it's headed for me soon and I'm terrified I'm afraid of what's coming and I'm scared to die But it ain't lookin good for me, now it ain't lookin good for me I know it's headed for me soon and I'm terrified I'm afraid of what's coming and I'm scared to die But it ain't lookin good for me, now it ain't lookin good for me My whole life been exposed as dark My disease had my deeds hittin off the mark But I had loved my illness even from the start Look everything was a symptom of my broken heart It pumped corruption to every single part of me Its pumped d**h and deception through arteries My direction was set to invest in reflect n deception Threat n my best n my d**h wasn't far from me Cause I tried to beat the symptoms now It wouldn't matter cause my heart would keep me livin foul I was helpless and hopeless it's endin now Unless I get a new heart well this is how I heard that there were others with the same plight But there was One begotten Son who can save life And His heart was so perfect He gave life My heart of stones been exchanged I've been changed right? I know it's headed for me soon and I'm terrified I'm afraid of what's coming and I'm scared to die But it ain't lookin good for me now it ain't lookin good for me I was told that God's standard is so high. My broken heart kept me from meetin His standard, so I just kept fallin short over and over and overagain. And there was really nothing I could do, it was not looking good for me. I guess my question for you is, since God's standard is perfection and none of us meet it, how do you plan on getting by? I know how I do, and to be honest I ain't worried about a thang.