Trembling Blue Stars - Deserve lyrics

Today made her real again I've been so dumb, I have been so dumb How I must have hurt you How you must have felt so alone Everything's clear again I'm not in love, I am not in love I only want to be held by one pair of arms What I make her into, it has so little to do with her But as for you, as for you You're everything I've ever thought you were And I don't deserve you Today made her real again And I'm not proud, I am not proud Proud of what's now ended The feelings I have messed with Everything's clear again I got so lost, this time I really lost my way I'd think of you today And feel my heart slowly break