Tormance - Spirit lyrics

[Verse 1] Graduated, but I'm not going far Feel like I'm moving but I look, and I'm still in the car Willing to fall for vanity of those tell me they're tall I plan to be standing above them but still who's in charge Who pays the bills even the ones they make for themselves They say it'd put more in my brain than the books on the shelf So here I am, in a white cinder block prison cell And outside a preppy bunch who judge, as well Feel like the same rat, got moved to a different lab To test affects of what depression and liquor'll have And while I'm at it go to cla** or I'm getting the axe I left my parents a child, should come back home a grad [Verse 2] Second semester's going worse than the first The pressure's getting to me “do it or you'll never be worth What we're spending, the tens of thousands piled up since your birth So smile will ya, and make it worth our while you nerd” I smoke more cigarettes than cla**es I go to in a day And I would rather write a song than write a f**ing essay Don't wanna leave my cells to hit the mess so I'm losing weight But it's okay it's just a game so while I'm here I should play Like how my teachers seem to think they got casted as God By the time the clock hits Nine I just feel blasted and shot Feel like I gotta get high no longer sleep like a rock But final's week is coming up don't give a f** yo I'm off [Verse 3] It's summer now, I'm smoking with my bro and growing how I wanna Got a job, clock out, roll up in my sister's Honda School starts again, friends leave I'm left behind to Make a little money living with Mama and Papa Get a second job, lose the first, stay with my Aunt to Make some money while I make it baked I'm getting nada Got payment problems this job kinda makes me nod off No privacy regardless of who owns the casa I need some time alone My mind can't be my only home I feel like I gotta move feel like I'm sitting on the stove Gotta get the f** out drop all my sh** and just go I lost my pa**ion and I know cuz I only get out of bed to work and piss And I miss the days when I still wanted to do that and this I'm kicking it within my hippocampus relying on memories I f**ed up guilty of committing self treachery I'll never be anything “don't give up hope Keep going” going to sleep, work, to make some muhno (money) God this sh** is stupid f**ing shocked that I don't lose it Like a clock I'm working with my hands Replaced if I don't move it Who's the one who set this up and made the world what it's become Hundreds, no millions billions of us in the tub I jumped in when I was born and now I wanna pull the plug On the run, from myself and what they've told me since I've been a son I'm finna chug whatever liquor I can get my hands on Hard d** optional making me sweat like a dog Return to nature's enticing me I'd be one with the grubs Likening me to being john, put my spirit in a slug