Tormance - Dive lyrics

[Verse 1] Getting out of bed is the hardest part of the day Until I see somebody else and it's too hard for me to say Good morning how are you, fine why ask me anyway You know I'd rather be dead than to be in any place Where I'm surrounded by my friends but I just don't wanna play Don't wanna talk to doctors getting paid to overmedicate My head is straight whether it takes me to the moon or the grave I lie it this way, in fact it just might be my fave f** it, just leave me alone I should be talking to myself cuz when I'm out I'm in my zone Point I wanna break down crying every time I get home And no amount of medication's gonna change me to the bone I'm reciting d**h around the corner in my head With a smile on my face you'd never guess from sh** I said Nevertheless I want rest without a coffin or my Sunday best Hoping one day they'd find cancer in my chest So I could die without suicide being the end So I wouldn't disappoint my f**ing family and friends But any d**h seems better than following the trends Of a society that says to be yourself but then again Unless you do what's done before no one'll like you any more So best to get in line and shut it ‘fore you're working on the floor The honor's yours, my achievement isn't sh** I just abhor The f**'s it for, I'm not loving my life I'm living yours [Verse 2] Reclusiveness is conducive to undo The damage done by the day, but granted they don't approve f** them fools, I get out once in a blue moon Met a girl I could really love the one not the two The face you see when you hear she, her, lose But she would choose making me move, argue What a shame but by the end I had forgotten why I liked you Knew you'd lie so I would feel like I had to hide a dude Staring with a long face, standing in the wrong place Gotta push me to move me because other wise I've got all day Conversations turned to tell me what's up or back down I'm looking at the facts realizing what I have now Two empty arms and maybe a heart to match On my guard and feeling about as strong as plastic wrap Nervous outside, I never desert my habitat My purpose is eluding me I'm losing it like Radagast I'm clueless as to why I feel I have to use the side door Or find paradise, riding on my high horse It's He I recant, I can't see what Jesus died for Weird choice of words if I said set me on the right course